The One Time I Look At The Past

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Sometimes I feel like I haven’t progressed enough.

Sometimes I feel as if I completely waste the 24 hours I’m given.

Sometimes… it is as if I have learned nothing at all.

But then I look at the past.

We are always told to leave the past behind – but what if it helps us see our growth?

It’s not always about LEAVING the past. It’s about not LIVING in the past.

Some may disagree… but I find it inspiring to think that I am not the same person I was yesterday.

I can confidently say: I am working to be better.

Beyond the Superficial

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In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Flip Flop.”

It is a bit sad that the last post I wrote was about resolutions and habits and what not and it has taken THIS long for me to actually build some habits.

The thing is — I was still looking for motivation in all the wrong places. In trying to improve my life – relationships, health, peace of mind – I became obsessed with the superficial.

If you think this post is going to be about finding something beyond the superficial in a relationship, you are right. It is about one of the most important relationships I have — the one with myself.

In the past few weeks, I’ve had a change of heart. The way I feel, look, and the habits I create all have one thing in common: ME.

It is not about what the media tells me I should look like. It is definitely NOT about dieting and cutting out every single food labeled as “bad”. It is about loving myself and actually wanting the best for my body, heart, and soul.

Have I started eating healthier? YES. But not because it is what someone told me to do. I have done it because it makes me feel amazing.  Have I started working out more? YES. For once in my life, I look forward to being sore the next day.

It is amazing what can happen when you choose to love yourself. The world does not revolve around me and I am completely okay with that. However, I only have one life, one body. If I choose not to love it now, I may not have it later.

Why I say NO to Resolutions…

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Resolutions.

If I counted the times I heard that word each January… I would seriously run out of space in my mind for anything else.

But honestly, I wish people would understand that resolutions are a waste of time.

Honestly.

When we make resolutions, our mindset is very… short-term.

“I want to lose 10 lbs”,

“I want to read 6 books”,

“I want to run a 5k”.

More often than not, these thoughts remain just that and no action ever takes place.

I personally believe in creating/building habits.

In order to truly change our lifestyle, we have to change the way we think! Instead of saying “I want to lose 10 lbs”, how about saying, “I want to create the habit of eating healthier and exercising to improve my body” and then actually taking time to plan meals and exercise so that by the end… maybe you’ll even surpass the 10 lbs!

Habits last and they are hard to break so, why not create good ones? (Especially since they won’t be just for a year…. they’ll end up benefiting us for a lifetime.) I often hear that it takes 21 days to create a habit… I guess there’s only one way to find out!

A Crowded Room

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“Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?” – Dark BlueJack’s Mannequin

Lately it feels like the lyrics of that song are incredibly too familiar.

I am surrounded by people day in and day out. My students come and go, the phone calls never seem to stop, and honestly, the day only gets busier as it progresses.

But for some reason… it all feels like a blur. Like I am standing still while everything around me just keeps moving faster and faster.

I’ve come to the realization that out of everyone around me, the one I want beside me is not here. That I’ve been going through the motions just because I have no other choice.

I can’t say realizing it is a bad thing. If anything…at least I know the state I am in. There’s nowhere to go but up, right? (Even as I type this, I laugh. Sometimes it is tiring to see the glass half full.)

But hey, every day can’t be perfect and every day is a new day…that’s what keeps me going.

Belonging.

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Although I am not a huge fan of receiving roses or any flowers… I absolutely LOVE taking pictures of different types of flowers I find abroad.

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In my opinion, flowers clearly demonstrate what belonging is all about.

The theme for this week automatically made me think of John 15:5:

“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.”

Once a flower becomes disconnected with the rest of the plant, it dies. It loses its beauty.

When we become disconnected from God… there’s really nothing positive to show for it. He gives us that sense of security, that sense of belonging. We often ask ourselves where God is when in reality we should be wondering where we are and why we keep on running.

This journey of becoming reconnected with God is not easy but I am learning that by staying connected, everything else takes care of itself. I know who I belong to…and at the end of the day, that is all that matters.

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http://wheresmybackpack.com/2014/11/14/travel-theme-belonging/

Boy. Girl. Ring.

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Boy. Girl. Ring.

If those three words could tell our story, it’s seriously all I would write.

You know how people do cleansing diets to get all the toxins out? I’m learning that sometimes we have to do that with actual people. But… it becomes so difficult when the “toxic substance” is the only one that makes you feel alive.

The past few days have been full of goodbyes and well, this is another one of those “cleansing” thoughts.  

I admit…it doesn’t get cuter than this:

An electrical engineer making a ring out of one of his wires? Perfect gift.

And while I love this ring and the person who made it more than I could ever explain… it is time for me to choose me.

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http://dailypost.wordpress.com/dp_prompt/by-hand/

There’s Something About an Arch…

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There’s something about an arch that can completely capture a crowd’s attention. For example:

Guatemala City, Guatemala

Guatemala City, Guatemala

And one of my absolutely favorites:

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Santa Catalina Arch – Antigua, Guatemala

Is that not magnificent? If you’re anything like me, you wonder about the construction process and what really holds it together while admiring the simplicity of the object itself. And then you might think…”Without a proper foundation, arches would not exist”.  Bam. Insane thought, right? Not really. But sometimes, it’s those little things we do not really think about. My goal is to have a strong foundation set on God. I am beginning to truly understand that if I let Him hold me together, nothing could possibly go wrong. And with His help, maybe one day I’ll be a living example of how amazing God, our architect, really is. http://wheresmybackpack.com/2014/11/07/travel-theme-arches/